Standing Still, again!

Why, once again, am I standing still? When did I start reacting instead of acting?
It is kind of frustrating to realize that I started but I didn't make it to the finals. The worse part is that it wasn't because I lost, it was because in one moment I quit, I stopped trying.
OK, but what is the good part? Everything has something positive right? The good part is that it didn't take me long to realize I was standing still again, because the things I was doing started to feel meaningless, with no purpose. So I'll start over again and I will try to try harder this time I promise :)